Good note

Well i guess its some kind of marriage season.. First, all my friends are getting into commitments (of getting married)... It's a strange feeling that i cant get rid of my mind. For one i am little strange (and i have no hesitation accepting it) and two.. How the hell can i stay with a complete stranger (and how can she take a "Wako", its my pet name from college ;) )

Friendship is good.. Marriage is a little off track. I was told about the violin's, bell, etc, etc.. But dont think those things work any more... For me, For now.. Carrier is fun.. My dreams are fun.. Living for myself is good (well dont think i am ready for a marriage.. And for guys like me.. We can never be sure of being ready for marriage). However, i am seriously going back to India in a bit.. Back to the trees.. Rain.. lots of Friends.. that lovely home.. the train.. the farm.. bike.. i can see a slide show right now.. Wish (actually being a little selfish) all my friends were not married.. (if i had a time machine i would have gone back to Sept 2003.. College.. Friends.. Those trips.. College bunks.. Those days will never come back :) )..

Well i am living ok.. Till the ok feeling gets to "great" no marriage for me ;)

Things i miss

The feeling of frustration just kicked in. I want to put in a few things that i miss from my childhood.
1)Miss my mom dragging me to get to school (when it came to school i used to do anything that would make me stay at home.. Some of them being Acting Sick, Crying)
2)Miss fighting with Roopa (My 2nd Sister) for a bar of chocolate. [Finally it used to get split into 2 equal halves, well almost or i would get the bigger piece]
3)My first cycle in which i used to VRROOOMMM inside the house [Well, it was a tri-cycle ;) ]
4)The small pond in our house.
5)My dad teaching me how to ride a cycle [All that he did was.. pushed the cycle]
..... I can see those scenes all in my mind.. Somethings are really difficult to forget
6)Ride that Soma used to give me when i had a broken hand.
7)Getting scolded by Benny Sebastian (He was my Electronics Lecturer in Christ College), didn't realize why he was scolding (Well, send him a mail as soon as i wrote this point ;) ).
8)Meeting that very special guy on the first day of college (i guess the whole world spin'ed around after that)
9)Pampering that i received from college (For the first time i enjoyed studying and liked the things that came with that)
10)The bets on who i would overtake (Academic percent wise) a fellow student [Always used to win these ;) ].
11)Being with a set of like minded people.
12)Those 4 lovely years of engineering [I those were the days i enjoyed my life, really wonderful]
13)1st day of office, first day of meeting someone who i never used to talk in college.. but became so close to in office
14)That 8th sem project, with two of my closest friends (Well 3, 1 outside partner).. the final night outs (Getting the project report, listening, thinking, dry project description with "Flute path reconstruction system ;)" It was fun though.
15)Missing someone on and off (this was a close friend of mine.. Names not taken.. For people who know me well.. You know who i am talking abt )
16)Miss working long hours for TZA.
17)Miss not working in HYCee (It looks Ironic right?)
18)Miss my bike, driving the car in B'lore.
19)Miss BENGALURU
20)Miss INDIA

Will there be a time when all of these will be with me? One place, one time?

Why come here?

Hmm, there was something that hit me like a rock. I was looking at a profile (Was looking for a friend and my mind diverted to an unknown profile [AS USUAL] ). Why do we leave our home country (India for me) and start missing it like crazy :(. I was on one side really confident that i could handle my life. I wouldn't miss anything from B'lore, etc ,etc.. But now i know nothing of that is true (The feeling is that they will never be.) now i feel like packing my bags (with shoes) and running away. To hell with everything (I can live a happy life with enough money rather than live an uncertain life).

The message on why we are here is clear, we want to move ahead with our life. Compete with others. Work hard, make a mark in life (not to forget the $$, still is 40Rs ;) ), but then is it really worth missing your family? Your friends? Your Home? Your Bike? Sheesh, like my sister said i truly have become a philosopher

That profile really touched me. Can i get my flight tickets today? :)